Start ?

Yesterday i was excited. Out of dunno what reason, i send some of my recent demos to a local band, Vespertine's vocalist, Jinn. The band that i went for audition few months ago. hehe..After i sent, he replied that he thinks my tracks are cool, and wanted to collaborate with me, taking over the vocals for my demo. We talked over the phone. He offered to do a single track recording with me, told me about how the process is going to be, what is involved, the studio and mixing price shit.

"so are you in ?"
"Yes. But can you let me think through over it for a night ?"
"what is it that you are uncertain ? i can help"
"its all too sudden. Well, but sad but true, budget is the thing that is bothering me a bit."
"Yeah. Its coz you haven't been through the industry yet. But im proceeding you with what i normally do"

The night i did thought about it. Asking for friends opinions. I dunno why i think he might be using my songs to promote their band or stuffs...coz this year, i made really alot of wrong decisions and mistakes.

"yes. im in"

Today, i sent some of my other recorded demos to him, just for the sake to share, really. And i went out to chill. I got a call from Jinn just now saying that one of the track that i sent sounded alike with one of their band track, and he sounded kinda impressed, in a way, saying i copy their style..hahaha..

"ok..now..would you like to play shows for Vespertine ? i will considered having you play with us for our upcoming shows.. are you interested ?"
"Yes. Im in. Thats so cool man"
"cool. But i need to talk to the guys. You know, i have 5 other bandmembers. Everyone have their own opinion..hahaha"
"yea..of course i understand"
"ok.cool. i will call you soon. peace dude !"

That made my day. All this comes so sudden. The day was a disaster..i dunwan to talk about it here..but i guessed most of people know what happened.. but that call made my night. And he just edit and rewriting the new chorus for my song that we gonna be recording soon. Talk about passion..fuuu..Dunno how soon, but he arranged and will be meeting JD from pop shuvit soon to discuss about it.

I dunno how this will end up. Will this be another wrong decision and investment ? but whatever, making music is always one of my passion. Anyway, i think im kinda numb with any kinds of outcomes and false hope. But i think i learn and grow with each lessons..hehehe

I realised whenever there is a happy thing happening, there might be a bad thing happens in the same time. So does that means that, when the happy time past, the bad times will come ? and so for the latter ? hahaa..k.this is bullshit. But thats what happened to me for now..hahahaha

I have hopes. But dun dare to hope for too much. See what else this year can offer me before it ends...hahahaha...